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Dream Band

It’s a notion that’s idealistic and seemingly only good for disappointment. Or maybe idealism is powerful but whatever, right?

I have this to say about time in band: frustration comes with the territory. Slightly sad, slightly true. I could even say it’s a steady part of the diet. To say that I’m hardened to it wouldn’t exactly be wrong either; I’ve felt frustration, and I still do, but I feel it less, if only because I feel like a lot of it has happened before.

But this is not a post about handling frustration. It isn’t even a post about idealism, or the futility or lack of yours, because I don’t think it’s futile and I think everyone is in some way idealistic about the things they’ve put themselves into. Do you not think things could be better? And, if I asked, ‘Are you going to do something about it?’ I think I would know the answer. I guess one thing I might wonder about is whether you’re going to let yourself get sidetracked from what you would want to do; I know you know how that happens.

I’ve taken a long while to get to the point, although I would say the ‘point’ is more of a personal feeling. I guess that means it’s not an admonition or anything. My dream band is where I am now.

Whatever I might feel frustrated or discontent with, the whole point is that where I am is where I am, and that there’s really quite a lot I can do to make where I am something better. It’s not about not having a choice, although if I wanted to feel that way I think I could choose to do so. Also, I feel that in many ways our band is already kind of a ‘dream band’ in the dream-y sense of the word, because it’s where the music is, and for me, if there’s at least that, it’s dream-worthy. Also, I honestly feel like it’d be a real challenge to find another group of musicians with such naturally good ears. I already know sound-wise, things are not going to get much better in my near future unless I go play professionally. Musically- and technically-speaking, it’s another matter altogether, but then that’s mostly because we’ve been lazy fucks.

It’s only slightly over a week before we take off. I’d be lying if I said I’m not even slightly worried.

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  1. jingen
    2 June 2008 at 10:47 pm

    Ahhh last word of second-last paragraph. Best word choice to date regardless of context.

  2. melbatoast
    2 June 2008 at 10:57 pm


  3. fab
    3 June 2008 at 4:40 pm

    I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. But disappointment is sure to follow that way.

    I think the latest installment of CAD was quite… o.O

  4. Cuthbert
    3 June 2008 at 5:23 pm

    So sad! Poor Ethan.

    I liked the latest Wasted Talent strip, but then it wasn’t exceptionally funny or anything. Just apt. http://www.wastedtalent.ca/index.php?view=369

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